My World

Little did I know that today would be the start of the worst five days of my entire life.  Jack woke up with a fever and I never would have imagined that 48 hours later we would be in the Emergency room....then released at 2:30AM......back in the Dr.'s office the next morning....... back the the ER the next afternoon......and admitted that night for the next 2 days.  It has been a roller coaster and things were certainly put into perspective for me.  I am so, SO grateful because although Jack was certainly one sick kiddo, he is expected to make a full recovery.  For that reason in and of itself, we are beyond blessed.  When we were being discharged, the my uncle George who is also Jack's pediatrician said that he is "damaged" from this illness and his little immune system will be compromised for at least 2 months.  That really stuck with me.....the word "damaged."  Wow.  In the hospital, he was lifeless and helpless...and I could not do a damn thing about it.  That killed me more than anyone who has not been through this can understand.   That feeling I had while sitting at Hope Children's Hospital will remain with me forever.  Jack is simply my world and I do not know what I would do without him.  They say what does not kill you only makes you stronger...and I believe that now more than ever.  I am thankful for my sweet, spunky little Jack every single day, but especially, especially today.  Thank you God for listening to my prayers.